爱上部落格

昨天为自己的部落重新包装...爱上了它！

我的部落名为mood of today...因为我是个蛮情绪化的人，这是我在半年前发现的。很多时候，我也不晓得自己为何会那样,就是没办法控制自己的情绪。我真的需要改了！

这两天很空闲，没有什么上课，人也变的有点懒散。加上自己感冒了，有借口不必念书。 乱七八糟的床

空闲的脑袋就是很喜欢胡思乱想。以前秋诗在时，我就会跟她说我想的东西...现在我真的不知道找谁说呢？

Flu at the caroling night

chicken mushroom porridge

haih...why am I fall sick so frequently?Esh..Esh..today i'm planning to go for caroling,but woke up to find that i'm having running nose...realised that i could not eat something spicy n hot,i went to buy some ingredients n cook myself a big pot of chicken mushroom porridge...I thought i will be better after the lunch n taking the nap...but i found that it becoming worse now...Argh!!!!

Hope I will recover soon...

Jogging

I went to jogging this evening.I jogged around Sharada Area..The playground area...And the End Point...These places bring me back some past memories.
The sharada area was the place i used to have a stroll with kelvin when we were together...The playground remind me where qiu shi n jaap knew each other...and the end point is the place where me and yi-ting went early in the morning to see the sunrise,when we were in 1st year.Kelvin n me wanted to watch the sun rise too last time.But i was prohibited from going out by the guard,Kelvin waited me outside the hostel till 6am.In the end,the sun rose before we reached the end point.
Manipal is not a very fun place to stay for many people.Even me feeling very bore to pass my holiday here.But I have many sweet memories here.Friends around me makes Manipal a great places to cherish.
I miss my friends...

holiday

like usual, i 'm having my holiday life in manipal eating...sleeping...watching movies...playing games...
not missing home this time...because there is always some family issues awaiting for me...better escape frm it...haih...
well,today get chance to chat with few of my seconday schoolmates and our class teacher..so fun...really miss them...we r planning to organise a gathering next year..hope can meet them all again...especially tong siang...din hear from him after we graduated
miss kelvin too...talked to him for half n hours at 090909...happy to hear that he is doing fine...realised that we r closer when we become friend again...he will b my best friend ever...

It's different...

Our relationship is different now...Can't tell how different it is in words...But i really can feel the difference.So is he...But we still wan to make it works...and see how the future it brings...
May be it works ,may it is not...
I read a few articles today.Make me think a lots about our relationship...Am i still love you? Are you still love me? Somehow I know you love me still, so am I... just in a different way...

Sick

I'm sick...having cold and cough... but under his care,i'm recovering now...yeah...hope that i can fully recover fast,so that he won't worry about me...
Yes,we got back together,after his 2nd request since we broke up...My life was a mess after broke up with him...i never felt so bad in my life...Thanks for everyone that accompanied me to pass that difficult period.That one month made me realised that i really couldn't live without him...and i've learnt how to get along with him this time----not be too dependent on him and to be more caring.Ok, will try my best not to be so emotional...this is the only thing that kill me... i really don know how to control my emotion...but i promise him that when i 'm in the bad mood, i won't see him. Because he can't help me much even he has tried his best...
Actually i feel a bit scare when i decided to accept him again.Because he never tell me the answer he is searching.I afraid one day he tell me that he has found the answer,and the person is not me.But i really love him very much..And i know he is too...May be i should not worry so much about something that is unsure...something that is unknown....As long as i know at this time this moment, he loves me...it's enough ard...

Thyroid hormone follow up

Yeah...tomorrow is the last practical paper lo...the previous microbiology and pharmacology paper i did them not very well.Especially Microbiology...Anyway they all passed already.
After the practical exam, i have to go to hospital. To follow up my thyroid hormone problem.Aiya, i din finished the propranolol prescribed,i had stopped taking them half month ago. I become a non compliant patient.Eh, can't blame me. The propranolol seem not effective to me, i still feel dizzy after taking them,got nightmare some more.You know what was i dreamt of?I dreamt of ghost and coffin beside my bed, soooo scary!!!
Tomorrow i got to go hospital alone because qiu shi has to go slump area for the huluran kasih thing.Ok, i hate to go to hospital...waiting for so long to get the consultation from the doctor.So irony, my future workplace is hospital,so i can't really hate this place.And in the future, I'm the one that other peoples waiting for.
Wish that there is no problem with my thyroid hormone and i no need to take any medicine anymore.Wish me healthy always.^-^

Sandwish

Finally finished theory paper lo... Anyway, still got 3 more practicals to go...Can't wait the exam to over. I'm so exhausted.Wanna take a good rest after the exam.Ok, i think i only can rest for one day because our 4th block is very short.Only 4 weeks,strictly speaking 3 weeks lectures 1 week exam. After that, 3 weeks study break, then university exam.Time passing so fast, 2nd year university exam is around the corner....sigh...
Tonight i have sandwishes as my dinner.I went to buy bread at manipal bakery, then went walk around and stop at sharada fruit and veg stall to buy cucumber and tomatoes.Making sandwishes on my own.Remind me of him. I still remember sometimes we had sandwishes as dinner on Thursdays. We take turns to make the sandwiches. He always made egg sandwiches wheres i made the veg one because I'm lazy to cook eggs.Even after we broke up, he made sandwishes for me one day when he heard i had no appetite.Well, i will think of him whenever i eat sandwish...it's part of our sweet moments.
Well, I'm going to cry again.Ok, ard cried. Don't know why, every time i think of him, i will unconsciously cry.I don't know i cry for what...So stupid me....

Fever

OMG,having fever before the forensic exam (which is the last theory paper). No wonder i feel warm the whole day. I thought just because of hot weather and i drink not enough water. i started to realised it when i suddenly feel severe headache and nausea. Feeling it is abnormal, so asked qiu shi to feel my forehead. And she said: you are having fever.
When i heard it, immediately i wanna go to bathe but qiu shi not allowed me to take bath.She said it will only worsen the fever... so i end up by eating paracetamol and lying on the bed to rest.
Feeling better now.... no more nausea and headache so creating the post here. Anyway, after the post, i have to study for forensic exam. I'm not yet finished studying...Argh.... there are so many poison to remember....
Well, wish me recover soon...no more fever when i wake up tomorrow...

New blog

A new blog...
A new beginning...
I used to blogging in friendster. And usually i used Chinese to type.But since i was in Manipal,i seldom blog.Most of the time, when i want to talk,i will find someone to talk to.And most of the time, my roommate,qiu shi is the one to listen and answer,even a very non sense question...
I set up this blog because after 2 months, my roommate is going back to Malaysia... and i find no one to listen to.The most important thing is this blog will help me to release stress , express my thought,through a healthier way...(so before that i release them with a not healthy way???)erm.. not really...the way are for instances:sleeping,lying on the bed without doing anything,and sometimes crying.
Well, i cried a lot these few weeks...especially when i woke up in the midnight.Crying for something that has passed...crying for something that won't be back....
Friends , are the one that help me lots.Gave me encouragements,gave me advices,gave me strength.Although it's really hard for me....Finally, a friend's message helped me find a way to live on: be a no-feeling robot...which i used to be during my secondary school time.
OK, i think it may sound funny or sad for most of the people. But this is the way that help me to stand up...